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I went back and started reading some of my past entries from years ago and was so entertained! I wrote mainly about things going on in my life and thoughts I had in my head. I think I've kind of forgotten recently to write about thoughts and have only been summarizing things that have been going on. So now I just have to remember to write in here!

This lady I work with went to India for a month over the holidays to visit her family and boyfriend. She's from there but has been going to school in the US for the past 4 or 5 years. The last time she had been in India was 3 years ago, which means she hasn't seen her boyfriend in 3 years! Apparently while she was there last month she got married and had to come back without him due to visas and whatnot. She's currently trying to find a way to get him into the US. She also came back with almost a shaved head. Could this be an Indian ritual? We were discussing it at work the other day. Anyhow, I guess the point of what I'm trying to say is you don't realize how good a certain aspect of your life is until you see an example of someone who has it worse. This lady probably won't see her husband for several years. She probably doesn't get to talk to him on the phone very often. I can't imagine how hard that must be, I mean I'm sure she's used to it since it's been going on for so long, but still, she's a newlywed!

I've gotten in the habit of looking out my window when I first wake up in the morning. My windows face out over a courtyard and the building opposite me so I notice when a certain apartment has a light on. This one apartment always has it's light on, whether it's midnight or 4 in the morning. I've come to the conclusion that they must just leave that light on. Perhaps they are afraid of the dark? Or have horrible insomnia. Several months ago I noticed the person in the apartment directly behind me must wake up around the same time that I wake up. They don't close their shades so I see the lady walking around and putting her coat on a whatnot. Then she walks out the door a couple minutes before I leave. I wonder where she goes?

I was looking at the swimming pool in the courtyard a few days ago and thought back to 6 months ago when I spent many a warm day laying out by it. Now it's freezing cold and snow-covered. The day I interviewed for my current job I sat by the pool all afternoon. It really doesn't seem that long ago. At all. It's amazing how quickly time has been flying by. I've been thinking a lot about things recently now that I've noticed how quickly time has been passing. Am I happy with where I am in my life right now? In the past I would have definitely said yes. Now I'm not sure. Maybe it's just because I'm really frustrated and upset right now and there isn't a goddamn thing I can do about it. I just wish I could make people see things the way I see them so they would understand where I was coming from.
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