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Date:2010-04-25 20:34
Subject:Long times...
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Mood: irritated

Hello all.

Much time has passed since the last time I posted. I am now married and putting an offer in on a house tomorrow. Currently Matt is playing World of Warcraft while trying to watch some show on the History Channel about the history of the USA. Since he is monopolizing the tv I figure I might as well log on here for the first time in 3 years and write something...although I really have nothing to write about.

I was chosen for jury duty next month and I have to call in on Friday to see when I need to report there. I never registered to vote specifically because I did not want to be chosen for jury duty. And look what happened. Fricken jury duty. Maybe my anxiety will shine through when they interview me and they won't want me on any jury anyway. That is what I'm hoping for.

I remember when this existed before any of the other social networking sites. This one is so much better because it's all about typing out your feelings and events of the day...not writing silly comments and looking at other people's pictures.

Well hopefully I'll write on here again soon. It would be fun to get back into it.

Adios!
Amis

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Date:2007-11-16 23:27
Subject:long time
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So...it's been a very long time since I posted any sort of comment. And I'm super proud of myself since I just typed this entire thing without looking at the keyboard. And if you think that's good, you should check out my 10 key pad skills. And by skills I mean skillz.

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Date:2007-03-09 23:54
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World of Warcraft has taken over my life.

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Date:2007-01-22 21:15
Subject:a;sldkfnlainvo;eijha;wlej;lasd!!!
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Mood: frustrated

I went back and started reading some of my past entries from years ago and was so entertained! I wrote mainly about things going on in my life and thoughts I had in my head. I think I've kind of forgotten recently to write about thoughts and have only been summarizing things that have been going on. So now I just have to remember to write in here!

This lady I work with went to India for a month over the holidays to visit her family and boyfriend. She's from there but has been going to school in the US for the past 4 or 5 years. The last time she had been in India was 3 years ago, which means she hasn't seen her boyfriend in 3 years! Apparently while she was there last month she got married and had to come back without him due to visas and whatnot. She's currently trying to find a way to get him into the US. She also came back with almost a shaved head. Could this be an Indian ritual? We were discussing it at work the other day. Anyhow, I guess the point of what I'm trying to say is you don't realize how good a certain aspect of your life is until you see an example of someone who has it worse. This lady probably won't see her husband for several years. She probably doesn't get to talk to him on the phone very often. I can't imagine how hard that must be, I mean I'm sure she's used to it since it's been going on for so long, but still, she's a newlywed!

I've gotten in the habit of looking out my window when I first wake up in the morning. My windows face out over a courtyard and the building opposite me so I notice when a certain apartment has a light on. This one apartment always has it's light on, whether it's midnight or 4 in the morning. I've come to the conclusion that they must just leave that light on. Perhaps they are afraid of the dark? Or have horrible insomnia. Several months ago I noticed the person in the apartment directly behind me must wake up around the same time that I wake up. They don't close their shades so I see the lady walking around and putting her coat on a whatnot. Then she walks out the door a couple minutes before I leave. I wonder where she goes?

I was looking at the swimming pool in the courtyard a few days ago and thought back to 6 months ago when I spent many a warm day laying out by it. Now it's freezing cold and snow-covered. The day I interviewed for my current job I sat by the pool all afternoon. It really doesn't seem that long ago. At all. It's amazing how quickly time has been flying by. I've been thinking a lot about things recently now that I've noticed how quickly time has been passing. Am I happy with where I am in my life right now? In the past I would have definitely said yes. Now I'm not sure. Maybe it's just because I'm really frustrated and upset right now and there isn't a goddamn thing I can do about it. I just wish I could make people see things the way I see them so they would understand where I was coming from.

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Date:2007-01-05 20:40
Subject:...
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Mood: confused

I just don't even know what to say.

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Date:2006-12-18 20:46
Subject:The Villages
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Mood: exhausted

Today I went to the greatest retirement place ever...The Villages. I've gone a few times before and I think I like it better each time. I never really figured out what I like about it. I mean, it's a huge (60,000 people) town where everyone has to be over 55 years old. You see golf carts whizzing past you in every direction along with seniors on bicycles and in fun convertibles. They have 'normal' stores and restaurants but everyone in them is older. Definitely not a place I would normally think I would enjoy, certainly not a place I would fit in. So I never knew why I like it there so much. Today I had this great epiphany; the reason it seems like such a wonderful place is that everyone there is happy. Everywhere you turn you see smiles, people socializing, dancing, eating, walking, golfing, etc. It's like an adult Disney World. It cheers me up to see so many happy people. I keep trying to convince my parents to move there...but to no avail. I almost can't wait until I'm older so that I too can live there. I guess I have to work for a while first before I can make the money necessary to retire with...but those are just details. Until then I can dream about someday living in the happiest place on earth...The Villages!!

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Date:2006-12-17 14:57
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Mood: frustrated

Hello world!

I am here in sunny Florida working on my tan. Only today it was kinda cloudy so i'm hoping tomorrow will be a better day for that.

So I am really frustrated. I want to help, but I can only help them if they want to help themselves. So frustrating. I can't do it for them. And I see opportunities slipping past them...opportunities that they will never have again. So yeah, that is my mini rant. Not as good as yours Liz. Maybe I can work up to your caliber.

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Date:2006-12-10 17:34
Subject:eye makeup
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Mood: disappointed

my eye makeup directly reflects my mood for the day.

heavy, dark makeup = bad mood
minimal, pastel makeup = good mood

today my eyes are black with heavy eyeliner.

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Date:2006-12-09 21:49
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Mood: drunk

my favorite movie is Amelie.

and i cannot stop crying.

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Date:2006-12-09 19:11
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Mood: infuriated

Wouldn't it be fun to go back in time, just for a day, and experience everything with the knowledge you have today? I would love to go back to elementary school...and not have to worry about anything...and be able to play outside with Margaret, and walk to school every day. Oy vay, I miss that. Life was so much less complicated.

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Date:2006-11-27 23:05
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so listening to Q101 this week was the greatest thing ever. i totally forgot about the Underworld and L7. I am currently downloading songs by them. sometimes i wish it was 1996 again.

and yes, it's hard to type with nails.

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Date:2006-11-21 18:47
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Mood: blah

I miss my family sometimes.

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Date:2006-11-20 20:50
Subject:Home Sweet Home!
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Mood: pissed off

Home home home! I get to go home! As much as a shun the North Shore, I still miss it sometimes. The last time I got to really go home was in May, so I would definitely say it's time to go back! When I asked Marilyn if I could stay with her she got really excited that she would have someone to spend Thanksgiving with. She's going to cook a fantastic dinner (she already told me the menu) and it includes jello, which makes it all the more amazing ;o) I'm looking forward to playing with her new kitten, Cassie, too. I love animals...just as long as they leave my Owen alone!! I'll be able to sleep late, catch up on my magazine reading, and work on my 'special project'. I have tentative plans with Kristen on friday to go to dinner and possibly out with her for her birthday...the big 26! I finally get to meet her friend Heather, whom I've heard so much about. I hope we go downtown...it's been a while since I've gone down there. Also on Friday night, Heather is going to be at Woodland's Academy (where she teaches) drinking beer in the closed dorms with her friend and co-teacher who happens to live in these dorms. I've never been to a party in a boarding school before...so I wouldn't mind going...as long as I can somehow do that AND hang out with Kristen. Oy vay. Not only that, but V. will be there...and I literally haven't seen her since high school graduation. Hmmmm. I am bad at planning. I told Laura that I was going to be home this weekend, but she already had plans to go see her parents in Door County. She said she might try and come home for a day or two to see me. We'll see what happens. I really want to go to Sephora at Northbrook Court since they don't have those in Iowa...and Joy Yee's Noodle House so that I can get my amazing mango-tapioca smoothie. I woudn't mind stopping by Upper Crust Bagels to get some authentic Jewish Bagels...sundried tomato, of course! Man, I do miss home. I get to see Jen on my way through Iowa City. Luckily they are letting us leave work at 12:30 on Wednesday (yes, we are getting paid for 8 hours) which means I will have almost the entire afternoon and evening to spend with Jen and Liz. Liz has to leave her condo around 9am on thurs. in order to be home in time for her family's Thanksgiving, which means I'll be leaving then too. That will bring me into Lake Bluff around 1...just in time for dinner!!!

Ok, this was a rambling journal entry. I blame it on my excitement.
For the record, I didn't eat dinner tonight. Are you happy?

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Date:2006-11-10 23:03
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Owen is now officially my little kumquat.

What I would give for a White Castle around here. Make that a White Castle and a Baskin Robbins. And I wonder why I've gained weight...

Never underestimate the power of a written letter. So much better than email. Sometimes even better than a phone call.

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Date:2006-10-31 21:55
Subject:forgotten
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Mood: exhausted

you know, i think my parents forgot about me. i called them a while ago and my mom said she'd call me back in 5 minutes and she did not call me back. wow, i'm so forgetful, even my parents forget. that is pretty sad. yesterday my mom told me that she was writing an email on her excite account when they booted her off and erased the email since she had been on for so long. i asked her how long the email was and she said only the equivalent of one page. how can it take so long for someone to write an email? i swear, it takes my mom twice as long as anybody else to do anything. oh, now they call! sheesh!

i just cleaned my apartment from top to bottom. even my shower. i hate cleaning showers. so now i get to sit here and enjoy the cleanliness. that is seriously the best feeling ever. although i seem to have gotten some sort of cleaner in my cuticle and is swelling up now. i might have to use my neosporin that expired last month.

i bought a jade plant! i cleaned off my desk and took off my old keyboard and mouse and put my jade plant there along with a few picture frames and stuffed animals. it looks so good now. i am way excited for it. i think jade plants are the cutest things ever. my mom used to have one in deerfield and i loved it. it used to be in their window in their bedroom and it was great. i'm sure they threw it out along with most of the other plants they had. i hate that my parents moved out of deerfield and sold our house only to have it torn down. i will never forgive them for that.


now my mom is talking talking talking...about random things...and i am getting tired. this may actually be good, i will be exhausted enough to go to sleep soon.

i need to buy a coffee table. i want it to be black so that it matches my tv stand, the piano, the bookcases, the futon, and the speakers. i will be so color coordinated.

tomorrow i head up north the ames. way excited to see matt and watch the nacho movie. i love matt. i haven't seen him in a day and i miss him. yes, i am a sap.

there are so many movies coming out. i remember when only two or three came out each week, now there are about a million. funny how things change. it's too bad that the movie companies chose quantity over quality. such is life.

i'll stop boring you all. have a good night.

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Date:2006-10-30 21:00
Subject:happy
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Mood: content

Isn't it funny to read through my journals and see all my different emotions? I go from being so unhappy to so happy. Lately I seem to have things in the extremes, unlike usual when I am just content with everything.

This past weekend was so much fun. I had the best time. I got to spend almost the entire time with Matt, so obviously it was a great time :o) I can't wait until next weekend. We changed the clocks back an hour so now it's light when I leave for work, but dark when I leave work. I don't know which I like less. I used to think I didn't like driving to work in the dark, but now when I leave at night it feels so late, even if it really isn't. Hmmm, I'll just blame it all on winter.

Sooo...i have a lot more to talk about but i need to get ready for bed. Peace Out, yo!

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Date:2006-10-18 18:31
Subject:I love Obama.
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Mood: enthralled

I'm definitely not a Democrat, but I love Senator Obama. I hope he runs in the presidential election. America needs him. He's young, fresh, un-corrupt (or so we think), brilliant, comes from a diverse background, well-educated, a good family man, and the list goes on. He seems like a much better person than most of those who are in politics now. Look at these guys who are having affairs with teenage boys, are alcoholics, have embezzled money, are dishonest...they are leading our country. Obama may not have all of the same views as me, but I feel he would make such a fantastic president. He truly believes in what he says. He hasn't been jaded by the spotlight of politics.

Ok, that is my rant.

Bye.

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Date:2006-10-16 22:16
Subject:Tired...
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Mood: exhausted

Tired after having slept only a few hours last night, ready for bed already and it's only 10:15.

Just wanted to check in, let ya'll know I haven't forgotten, but really am too tired to type much tonight. Will try to update more tomorrow or Wednesday.

Cheers!
Amis

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Date:2006-10-09 18:26
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Mood: exanimate

So last night I was bumming around on livejournal and noticed that quite a few famous people have livejournals, including Billie Joe from Green Day, George Clooney, Ben Affleck, and Casey Affleck just to name a few. I started reading some of their live journals and they were quite interesting. I don't know if they're valid...or just jokes...but they were really interesting. I found out some interesting things, like Billie Joe likes to have affairs with men and other interesting relationship info. So I recommend you look into these journals. Yeah.

I had a pretty good day at work. It went by quickly, which is all that matters. I forgot that I have a half hour from last week to add on to this week's hours which already puts me at almost 11 hours. Nice! We went to Maid Rite for lunch and I had the Chicken Ranch melt which was pretty good. I ate really fast and drank my pop super fast which I think made my tummy a little upset. But it passed and I feel better now. We have had constant samples coming in which means I have been constantly busy doing things which also makes the time go by more quickly.

My parents left for Florida today. This makes me sad because now I can't drive to see them if an emergency happens. Now I have to fly to see them. This will only make me feel more alone here now. It's weird b/c when I saw them a couple of weeks ago I enjoyed myself, but was quite happy to return to Iowa and my job. But now that they are going so far away I'm getting really sad and upset. I tried to convince them to stop in Iowa to see me. They nixed that idea. I have plane tickets to see them right before Christmas, but that seems really far away. I'm afraid this is going to make me even more in a funk. This was kind of a rambling paragraph, I apologize.

Another thing I am worried about is the weekend. For the last several weeks I've had things to look forward to during the weekend, so that has easily gotten me through the long week. Recently I have come upon a dry spell, nothing much to look forward to. This weekend I won't be doing much of anything, except possibly seeing Matt on Sat for a little while. It just seems like the weekends go by so slowly when I'm not doing anything. The weekend after that I am heading to Iowa City for Leah's wedding on Firday and to hang out with Liz on Sat-Sun. That will be fun and will give me something different to do. Finally the weekend after that is when the girl I work with is getting married. I don't think I'm going to go b/c I really don't want to drive four hours by myself to sit through a ceremony, only to drive back home again. I don't think she expects me to go luckily.

That has been what has ben on my mind lately. We have a meeting at work on Wed and I am terrified that my stomach is going to growl. I am so sick of worrying about this. It is on my mind almost constantly and prevents me from going to movies, joining a club, and doing anything that is in a quiet environment. Do I really have to deal with this? I think if I were brainwashed then I wouldn't have a problem. It's only because I expect my stomach to growl that it growls. If I didn't worry or think about it then it definitely wouldn't be a problem because it wouldn't growl. It really sucks.

Lizabeth: I am watching Oprah and she is talking about sweat. I wish you could see this. This doctor is talking about how the body uses it to cool itself down. He is saying that the amount of sweat has to do with hormones and the thyroid. I guess you already knew that.

I have been hearing the guy (or gal) above me recently and I haven't really been hearing him/her before. Only in the very super early morning hours have I heard him/her. Just now him/her walked across the living room and made my ceiling fixtures shake. I'd love to see this person. I wonder if they are big? Maybe they just stomp? It is a mystery.

I'm out for now.

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Date:2006-10-08 22:18
Subject:ahhhhhhhhhh!
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Mood: frustrated

Sometimes I just want to rip my hair out and scream at the top of my lungs!!!! But I probably shouldn't do that in an apartment.

AND I have to wake up at the ass crack of dawn tomorrow...wait no, BEFORE the ass crack of dawn...to go to work. This sucks!

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